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My insomnia kicked in hard and fast last night, as it always seems to when I'm overly tired and desperately in need of a good night's coma.
If you've never suffered from the torture of insomnia, it's hard to explain just how painful it is.
It's like your mind is running in a continuous, monotonous stream - like that Billy Joel song - and all you can do is lay there and stare at the ceiling and think WE DIDN'T START THE FIRE and yet that doesn't change the fact that it was always burning since the world was turning.
It's like running on a never-ending, nightmarish treadmill, while a cloaked, hooded evil figure tells you that you can stop to rest just as soon as you get there.
It's like every cell in your body is suffering from restless leg syndrome, and your entire body is made up of trillions of mexican jumping beans, and the more you try to calm and soothe these ones over here, the more those ones over there are popping out of their cellular walls.
It probably didn't help matters any that there were thunderstorms going on all night long. A couple swigs of nyquil might have put me into a blissful stupor in a quiet, dark room, but instead it only served to amplify the rain pelting against my window and make me feel like I was riding on a float in god's chaotic parade, flashbulbs popping in my face and the big bass drum following along behind me pounding out its NEVER. ENDING. BEAT.
Insomnia sucks balls.
What do you do when you can't sleep? What could I have done? And more importantly, how the hell do I get through the day when all I want to do is curl up under my desk and sleep?
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One thing I do (when I don't pop an Ambien) is try to fall asleep in a different place than my bed. I'll go to the couch (no lights or tv or anything) and see if there's something different about that environment that leaves my head empty, instead of racing, and try to relax in there. 9 times out of 10 it helps. The only problem is moving back to your bed later. But in the end you're getting much more sleep than you would in your bed. I suffer from chronic insomnia AND anxiety (WAY bad combination) so I know how you feel. Good luck! - Sip tea all day (iced or hot). It doesn't have as much caffeine as coffee and won't give you that caffeine crash. As much. Eat lots of fruit.
I agree with Carrie Ann. Hit the couch. If I'm not asleep within 15 minutes of lights-out, I know it'll be much longer. Fortunately, I had the foresight to buy a couch that is very, very comfortable for sleeping.
It's Friday. Make it a short day and go home early.
If the insomnia is the type that has your mind racing over all sorts of inane bullshit, I HIGHLY recommend a homeopathic remedy called Coffea Cruda. The brand I use is Bioron and Whole Foods carries it. I even give it to my kids. It's not a sedative, won't make you dopey, and will not interfere with any other medications you're taking -- it just somehow quiets your mind when it's running at 100 mph.
As for the physical restlessness, I haven't found a cure for that yet. Except maybe FINALLY GOING THROUGH MENOPAUSE. Which can't happen soon enough for me.
nothing too strong, just hald to one tablet of sleep-aid (dox..succinate). No groggy in the morning either.
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